"In America if you are single you have one goal - find someone and find someone now. There are two stages of life, before marriage and after marriage. The first step is there only to move to the second step. As a single woman it's everywhere, "one day when you are married....",
"Singleness isn't as good as marriage because you are alone more and won't get tagged on facebook in a declaration of love by a significant other. "
I wrote the above quotes a few months. Forgetting to finish it and post it on my blog, I probably didn't think it was important subconsciously . However, it is none-the-less true and a battle I have faced for years. Well, I suppose, since I was born. It isn't other people that impose these thoughts on my, it's what I impose on myself. What I see in our society; in movies, and on facebook; has this "bigger than life" impact on me. It's not even reality. Realistically I have girls who are in serious relationships, wether married or dating, tell me that they live "vicariously" through me. My mom and a grandmother tell me to "live it up" as a young single woman who is done with college. "The world is your oyster...."
Then there is God. God has shown me all the blessings in my life and how they have stemmed from Him. What I want never equals what is His best. And yes, "God's timing" is very important.
As I have dated different guys. Some broke my heart, some got their heart broken by me, and some walked away with the same thoughts I had ("What????"). But, one thing they all lacked was a relationship with God that I could relate to. I have seen a good visual of what a health marriage looks like. It's a triangle with one point the woman, another point the man, and the top point is God. I have always known that I need to be with a man where we are looking at the same thing, which is the Heavenly Father himself. The last guy and I were looking at running as what brings as together ( as well as a few other things that doesn't belong on a "G" rated blog). How long did this relationship happily last?? About ten days.
Tonight I have a date with a man who belongs to a church and has already told me stories of how he has grown closer to God. He doesn't act like he knows it all and is very humble. Although, this will be our first time meeting and I don't know where it will go from her, I do know God has it in his hands. I have never put a relationship with a guy in His hands and it feels pretty good:) very peaceful:)
